Country:United States Birthday:5/12/1987 Gender:Female
Interests:First and foremost, Jesus Christ-->my comforter and my strength.
also, staring at the ceiling, making animal noises, whistling two different notes all at the same time, counting my fingers, counting my toes, rolling around in the mud, talking to my dog, talking to myself....eatiing.. eating...eating.....chocolate .. ice cream late at night when no one is watching.... Expertise:*Music. track runner, or use to be one. SNOWBOARDING. PIANO!!! , violin, voice, and guitar. running. Soccer. art. S.A. Pastor @my school---->community outreach/service for the National Marrow donor program and Red Cross. NURSING HOME MINISTRY.
for my future profession, I plan on being a social worker for geriatric care. Yes, Im a softee for the elderly... Occupation:Student Industry:Art
It is now 40 days until I get married. 40 days!!! Can you believe it? It's 4 AM, I have clinicals at 7 AM (I know, I'm stupid), and I can't sleep. It's not that I'm having "second guesses." It's not that at all. There's just a lot to think about...
And my wedding...
is 40 days away!!!! I will be officially starting a new life - a new home! And with the man of my dreams - my "one-true-love." I know I sound lame and pathetic, but it's true and wonderful.
However, I should really get to sleep. I'm getting one of those tired headaches and I'm beginning to feel a little bit nauseated. BLAH!
Sometimes I am still cursed by insomnia and it sucks really bad. My fiance's neighbor, Raymond (med student at LLU) told me that not getting enough sleep is a pre-disposing factor to cancer. Isn't that awful? I should really sleep more. I feel better when I do anyway.
To be really honest, I spent several hours working on my wedding registry. I got carried away and before I knew it the time was 2 or 3 AM. I know!!! dumb.
At least I'm documenting my life again. I can't believe I went so long without doing it. I guess... the reason behind that is....
Tim sort of became my diary. However, he has recently scolded me for not writing in my diary. It was one of his "routes" in getting to know me. Isn't that interesting?
It has been a very long time since I haven't written in this diary, or any diary for that matter. I am getting married in a couple months - can you believe it? Sometimes I can't. Recently I have been feeling a lot more anxious... worried that I won't get everything done, or that my wedding will be absolute chaos. I really hope not.
I'm in nursing school now - can you believe that? I never thought I would be a nurse, but I'm in nursing school and I love it. I'm actually doing my geriatric rotation this quarter (it has been amazing, but I'm sure you would have expected this).
Anyway, I have a test tomorrow that I should really be studying for. I hope that I can have enjoy myself the next few months... enjoy the process of preparing a wedding.
Right now, I look forward to our honeymoon more than anything else. It should be a lot of fun. We're going to St. Lucia! Yay!
It is the final week of my winter break, Jan. 2, 2007. The first quarter of college flew by. I finished with a 3.73 gpa, which is...believe me... a lot better than I thought it would be. I have low self-esteem when it comes to the academia world. I have made up my mind to believe that I'm not brilliant. I do not say this because I beg for pity, I say this because I've assessed my brain to see that it is true. However, my friend William seems to think otherwise:
William: if you have a mind and can use for other than keeping up with fashion and gossip and can think for yourself you are brilliant and bright, you are a light to those who can't.
An inspiring comment. I think he was referring to me. Anyway, I am switching my major. If all goes well, I will be auditioning into the music program this spring quarter. I've been told that beyond my current age it is difficult to excel at an instrument. I believe in this full-heartedly, which is why I've decided to dive back into they mystical word of music - and I do not say that out of mockery. When I play music I am infused with a creative energy. I want to re-explore this area and hopefully do something I can be proud of.
But what about beyond music? My major will be music education. Apparently this is my "fall-back" profession. I will start taking science classes and see how it goes. Do not question my motives: I am not pre-med or pre-dent. I am pre-I don't have a clue. Okay?
New Years Eve in Japan was a happy time for my family. We walked to a temple in Higashi-Yodogawa and hit the gong at midnight. We laughed and whistled... life couldn't feel more complete. If I could have requested anything at that moment it would have been a kiss from my boyfriend. So, I tried to imagine it, but as you must know, imagining isn't nearly as good as the real thing.
Speaking of my boyfriend, he came out to Japan for the first week of Christmas break. It was incredible. My grandfather (Ojiichan) has been sick with terminal cancer (stomach) for some time. This was Tim's last opportunity to meet him before his death, and he seized it. Somehow he scrounged up the money to do it. He flew out a day before me and spent the day with my family. It's really nice to have a boyfriend that fits in so comfortably with my family. It is also equally nice to have a boyfriend that takes interest in my motherland - Japan. Tim was so fascinated with Japan. He gained pleasure out of simple things - such as, looking out the shinkansen (bullet train) window. He also received full ratings from my grandfather. They really hit it off...
Ok, well... I should probably go to bed now. Good night diary...
It's kind of ridiculous that I've gone this long without writing in you. Well, guess what? It took me rolling around in my bed till 4 am to make this decision - I am finally recording my life again.
This past Sunday was my 6 month semi-anniversary with my boyfriend Tim. Yes - Tim and I are still together. And we are doing amazing.
I am in college right now and my head is going crazy. I'm still figuring out this whole "time management" thing. Apparently, I really suck at it. Anyway, I have my first test in intro to social work @ 1 pm today and I'm scared. Really. Tests freak the hell out of me, especially now that I'm in college.
So I was in Japan this summer. There is a reason why: my grandfather is dying of stomach cancer. We will be going back this Christmas, and if he is still alive (God willing), Tim may have the opportunity to meet him. I really hope it works out this way.
Bla bla bla, I don't feel like writing much more. To give you more brief updates on my life, I am going to La Sierra University in Riverside, CA, I'm majoring in Social Work with a minor in music. Somehow I have already acquired the position of Co-Captain for a Homebase Ministry Team, and I am also Co-Social VP for the Social Work Club.
My head is seriously going crazy. If I don't fall asleep anytime soon...
Junky
p.s. my roommate is awesome. Her name is Quiche and she's from Sacramento. We laughed a lot before she fell asleep.
.. ice cream late at night when no one is watching....
We're going to St. Lucia! Yay!
